The Fear Of The Unknowns

Uncertainty is crowding my mind,
Like clouds heavy with rain
With conflicting thoughts crushing my brain,
Leaving waves of doubts behind,
Am afraid am losing the war to the fear
The fear of the unknowns

My mind is under siege
With winds of doubts cruising to and fro
Causing blurred visions and swiping out dreams
I have no peace of mind the nightmares have taken root

Too many decisions to make
Very little time, they are argent
My mind has become a double agent
Torn between the Do's and the Don't s

Doubts casting brain incisions
Haunted by a lonely feeble but persistent voice
A voice that has only one question... "What if?"
I'm Running out of time , yet am lacking precision

An Old friend is back in town
He wants us to meet and catch up
I know we need to catch up for old time's sake
But, What if...?
What if this ain't a coincidence?
What if he is changed to wrong?

There is a new girl next door
She is beautiful
i know i like her
And i think she likes me too
I can tell from the way she looks at me
Especially when am working out
I should ask her out instead of staying indoors time in time out
But...What if?
What if my feelings for her are not profound?
What if its just another infatuation??
What if it will end up as another fling??

Am tired after work
The sun is setting on the horizon
It's a nice sight by the shore
I should take a walk by the sea as i enjoy the the breeze to help me unwind
But ...What if?
What if the wind blows too strong
Too strong for the banks to hold and water comes running ashore and carries me whole???
What if...?What if...?What if...Am just swimming in
fears of the unknown???
What If????!!!

what has become of life??

Am lost, and in strife
Trying to find figures n features
To help me understand what it is life
I've become a wonder-er who wonders
Taking any path,  any path that will give answers
You like we did in maths
Answers of what life has become

All that was good is gone
Replaced by all that is bad
Fights are allover
Even among the birds

All love is lost
And the little that is left has become a game
A game like that of thrones
Money is the Ace  and the kingmaker
A fat wallet and u will wear crowns as many
Faithfulness is scant
Like any other games it has its game-cheats

Its like there are forces,  unseen yet so strong
Pulling n pushing
Only to one direction that of falsehood
Now Everybody is in the neighborhood

There is nothing to celebrate
Some are too weak to even make ends meet
Yet others throw parties every other week end

Shades have become so many
Grey has now fifty
And they are all over
Nothing looks familiar not anymore
Not even our sisters faces
We  even wearing shades of all sorts
I guess to see things in a shoddy-shady perspective

The streets are no longer safe
The streetlights are just but highlights
And nothing seems right
Even the beggars now look mean
Life has become so insecure
We fear our own shadows
We no longer sure of anything
Not even ourselves
We take selfies every now and then
Add captions just in case

What exactly has become of life?!!

what is love?!!

To the hearts of love
From your generosity i beseech
This piece of knowledge i seek
For i have searched and searched
From countryside villages
To cities with villas and pride
What's love?

I have been there before
Believe am not naive
Answers are few
So am popping the question live
Whats love?

And please don't say love is kind
I've come across lovers of various kinds
Many want to live in palaces and be treated as Queens
Yet they won't act like royalties
They can never be loyal
Whats love?

Please put it plain while you explain
Its been confusing and intriguing with pain
Am getting tired drinking from the same pint
At least give me a list give me a hint
Whats love?

For a long time I've been wrong
Thought love was patient
And so i waited and waited
Until i became a patient
Sick with solitude that
Even on valentine's i was quarantined
Whats love?

Don't tell me love is persistent
Because  every time i persisted on commitment
She she insisted that needed her space unlimited

The kind with no strings attached
Once the heart is broken
There are no strings to attach the pieces
You always hurt, you can never be at peace
Whats love?

Show me a sign
I'm on the verge of losing faith in love
I'm almost calling it quits and resign
For all they want is dollar signs ($)
Whats love?

I was lost as a host
Thought love was simple and straightforward
You know a few tricks, like how to write her name in Romans
Always make her laugh as you shower her with romance
You just need to try and be a little romantic
Now i know better for i know that I don't know
what is love???